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An' a REALLY big pair of scissors.
I'm talkin' like... Two feet long, hahah.

So that I can pretend I'm the Slit-Mouthed Woman.
Go around, following little kids.
"Am I... pretty?"


xD

Again, with that whole... needing a life thing.
Ye-up.
Still don't have one.

So I've been sitting around, watching movies.
Anastasia, Spider Man Three, Bubble Boy... I'm currently in the middle of watching The Slit Mouthed Woman (CARVED).
On part seven of twelve.
Boy am I ever a sucker for Asian horror movies. <333
It's pretty good, though. If yer into that kind of thing.

Have I ever gone a LONG time without internet access. I've been pretty much traveling all over the country. Not literally, of course. I've been IN a wedding in Atascadero, California, spent two weeks there preparing for it. Found out I REALLY don't like champagne. Then I had to see my grandparents down there, too, in Grover Beach.. And there was my Uncle Robby's wedding in Tennessee that I had to attend. And now I'm in Las Vegas, visiting my mommy. It's taken me weeks to get here. Weeks. D; This has been killing me, seriously. I have an addiction, I'll admit it. This whole no internet thing just doesn't work for me, no matter when I try it.

HOWEVER. Because of my long absence, I had to remove myself from all of my role plays. None of my friends are EVER online anymore, and without a role play, I can't make new ones! They've all outgrown the websites I met them on, or have no time because of college, mostly. So they're all a bunch of shitheads. And the only person I ever used to be able to count on to constantly be online is my last best friend, Kelly. But she sucks, because she up and decided that she hated me a couple of months back, soooo.... Yeah, I've got no one to talk to anymore.  I hate it.

Although this does allow me more time with all of my lesbian books and fanfictions on the internet, hahah. Yeah, there's some yaoi stuff in there too, but honestly, I know I'm completely gay. So whatever, right? xD I'm just in it for the literary interests. Really, actually. I'll read ANYTHING I can possibly get my hands on, so long as it's written half-competently. Have I ever mentioned what an avid bookworm I am before? No? Well, yeah, I doubt there's many people out there worse than me. All of the librarians back up home in Washington know me by name and face. We're all kind of like friends hahah. I need help, seriously.

I'm sure my brain will fry eventually from all of the words, but ah well. I do take breaks every now and then to make something. Which, by the way, reminds me that I really need to get some new goddamn shirts. Just yesterday alone I had three new ideas for shirts, and I made a tie, and a new pair of pants. I haven't finished the second pair of pants, though, due to lack of a different fabric. I know my mommy has some, but I need to ask first. It's really beautiful fabric, and I don't know that she doesn't want it, so... I've got to find a time to ask her about it. And then see if I can convince her to take me to Goodwill. Really, I really need those shirts. And a real sewing machine for a jacket.
I'm surprised at how creative I've been since I got here. I'm practically drowning in it. Too bad I can't draw, or I'd be able to keep these ideas around longer. However, I only have my memory for it, which is why I need materials soon. D;

I've been kind of restless and bored today, though, which is always bad. Because that leads to me eating so that I'm actually DOING something, and I'm still kind of a fatass. Ugh. It doesn't help that my mom is constantly making me eat cookies and pies and cinnamon rolls whenever she's home. Yeah. So when I'm alone, I've decided to not let myself eat ANYTHING. The past few weeks have gotten me down to one-oh-three, but it's not good enough. Not to mention there's nothing stopping me from gaining all of the weight back. Blech. Hating this. But whatever.

I'll just have to get the fuck over my lack of things to do eventually. But, hey, if anyone has some free time or whatever, talk to me, 'kay?
'Cause if not, I'll eat yer fucking head!!!! -Chomp chomp-    ;D


Hope yer all 'avin' a kick arse summer.

Okay. So I did this thing... Not sure why. I'm just lame, I guess. But boredom struck, and I found myself being told... What? I look asian? That's weird. Seriously, I never thought I looked even a little bit like an Asian girl. Sorry if this grosses anyone out, but.... Damn. Ouch. Asian girls are HOT. There is no fucking way I could manage to look like that.

The only person I recognize on there is the Japanese music artist, Ai Otsuka. Really hate her music. Adorable girl, though. Reminds me of an insanely cute little kid I saw once. No fucking idea who 'Mai Kuraki' and 'Bonnie Pink' are, though. Going to look them up right about now. Alont with that 'Natalie Imbruglia' chick. I don't know who she is, either. xD 

My best friend Allie, though, apparently looks most like Danish supermodel Helena Christensen.  Luuuuucky. D;




        

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This is what I've said to myself when I'm all alone in my room. I'm tired of people judging me for my not following the 'normal' way of things. I do things my way, not the way that has been deemed as 'correct' by silly old people who are all too bothered by lack of hard-bound structure. People all want things to be done a certain way. People need to act how they act, do the things that they do, and have the same opinions as them as well. 

Well, I'm sorry to say this, honey. But that's not the way Adair Ely works. I'm going to continue celebrating Adolf Hiedler's [Hitler's] birthday every April twentieth [Though not in the way of getting stoned. I don't do that shit.] , among other things. But right now, that's the thing that is REALLY bothering me. Peoples' dislike of my decision of going out and eating some amazing german chocolate cake on the birthday of an absolutely INGENIOUS man. I mean, genocide aside, one must take into account that this man came damn close to taking over the entire European continent. It wouldn't have been long until he seized control of the rest of the world as well, and he is the only man who has ever existed who ever posed such a huge threat 

Now. I am not saying that I agree with him, and that I wish that he had succeded in becoming the Führer of all of the planet Earth. But the fact still remains that Hitler had to have been absolutely brilliant to have done so well for himself, and why people hate him for that is beyond me. I don't hate Hitler. I have some great respect for him. I think other's should not think so badly of him either.

Whatever. It's trime for aerobics. 

My dad is really onto me lately about my frequently skipping dinner. But I think he was pacified last night by my eating half of one of those little tiny miniature bagels. I can't even use the 'I'm not feeling well tonight' excuse anymore, so... I have to be careful. I think if I just hole up in my room all weekend long, he'll leave me alone.

Trust me, it never works, though. The whole 'not eating for the weekend' thing. I still end up going downstairs an' getting something to eat. It's really hard to stick to my diet. I end up going over my five hundred calorie limit maybe once a week or so. I just can't HELP it. Which, by the way, will end up being TWICE this week, I just know it. Monday I ended up puking up all of my food because I got up to three thousand calories, an' I freaked out so much it made me sick. An' today I'm going out to eat with my friends after school. I would much rather just.. not go. But I can't do that, because this is the only time I ever see ANYBODY outside of school. So... I'm pretty much screwed. The place we're going to has SUCH fattening food, it's a horrid fright. If I don't get anything, though, Holly an' Allie would both prolly freak out just a bit.

That's why I need to stay AWAY from food both Saturday an' Sunday, by the way. Monday, too.

I'm seriously disappointed in myself right now. I'm all the way up to the second heaviest I've been in my life - I'm one hundred and four pounds. TT __ TT This trip the Fuji won't help one bit.
Why the hell do I have to care about spending time with them? If I didn't, I could get back down to eighty-two again. I was doing so well until they started dragging me along with them to these stupid restraunts all the time.